There is a quiet out here that is unerving

Leaving you alone with your thoughts

Can you imagine a scarier place to be?


Even the wind is afraid to speak


In the silence their is also a beautiful calm

One that slows your breath

and softens your gaze

I think the colors are brighter out here

Maybe without the noise

I can finally see clearly

through the chaos

and into the beauty that lies within

They can see you

They are in my house waiting for me.


I slowly turn the dead bolt lock and push the door open. Holding my breath in hopes that it will somehow keep the door from squeaking. My eyes slowly criss cross the room looking for any sudden movement.

They hide in different corners of my house every day.

I slowly make my way to the kitchen and jump at the kitchen sink as though an army might come out of the pipes to attack my darkened soul.




I try not to let my foolish excitement overrun me. They are still here. They must be.

I slowly make my way down the hallway. Careful not to make a sound. As I turn the corner, there they are.

Just waiting for me.


Laughing at my utter inability to stop them.


I throw everything I have got at them. To no avail.

And just like that they are gone.

Back into hiding.

Just waiting for my next move.



~my ode to fruit flies~

My Sister Goes Vegan Part 1

My super amazing sister is going vegan for lent. I thought what a fabulous topic for my blog. I have asked her to write a few pieces about the experience. Now, try not to like it too much. She is a published author and a far better writer than I.




I’m going VEGAN!

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, and for many people that means the start of a 40 day fasting period before Easter.  I see it as a time of restraint, meditation, and preparation for the coming of Easter.

This Lent season I’ve decided to give up all animal products.  This may not seem to have much to do with religion, BUT I do think that practicing self control can manifest itself in spiritual ways… besides, my body is a temple right?

Also, I’m also kind of killing two birds with one stone here, because I’ve been slightly obsessed lately with learning about “real,” (as in unprocessed) food, and have been reading some great books, like French Kids Eat Everything, In Defense of Food, and The China Study.  I also read the 100daysofrealfood blog, and Food Babe (in embarrassing quantities), but, hey no one can say I lack enthusiasm!  Long story short, I’ve been slowly weaning myself off of highly processed foods and trying to eat more fruits and veggies.

As my sister’s “wifey,” would say “I drank the Kool-Aid,” and I’m ready to plunge in head first and try becoming a Vegan .    My plan is to fill you guys in on the struggles, rewards, ups and downs of my adventure.  Who knows maybe by the end of Lent I’ll be a brand new woman.

Here are some of my pre-Vegan thoughts that I hope to explore:
1. Will learning to say “no,” to my food impulses give me strength in other areas of my life?
2. Will not having the option of emotional junk food eating help me to grow as a person?  Will I turn to prayer or meditation, or will I replace my cravings with some other temporary pacifier?
3. Will I feel any different physically from eating Vegan?  Will I have more energy?
4. What will I do when eating over at someone’s house (I’m shy and don’t see myself liking to explain all this to people)?
5.  Will I find good Vegan options at restaurants?
6.Will this change the way I eat or view food permanently?
7.Is there any (affordable) AND tasty way to drink coffee with cream as a vegan (this is crucial to my happiness 😉 ).
8.  How am I ever going to give up Diet Coke????!!!!! Blurg!
9..  And of course every girl’s constant question…. will I lose weight? lol.

There should be a number ten shouldn’t there? Dang it!
Wish me luck!  Maybe all my reading will finally be put to good use!

Peace and Cheers!
NeverContrary’s sister….
AlwaysContemplating?  SometimesVegan?  TrulyTerrific!  BlogNamesAreHard!!

What if wordpress did not exist?

What if …


The world revolved around love

and compassion

instead of greed and power?


The world started caring more about

each other and others well being

then their  own needs.


It was more common to see someone doing a

random act of kindness

on the news then an act of hate?


Politics was about intellectual

debate and respect with the

idea of the common good over the individual


Movies that were made about books were actually

as good as the books?


You had never read my blog?


One can lists what ifs all day long, but at the end of the day, there is nothing we can do to change the past. It is up to us to change the future and take away our the opportunity for future what ifs to pop up.



The calm before the storm.

My brain is a bit cloudy these days and it is leaving me challenged to be creative.  Well that and all I can hear in my mind is the theme song to wonder pets. “Wonder pets, wonder pets, save the day” And of course I hear it in my daughters voice as she chants it around the house. She also sings a nice little song I made up about lightning bugs and how their booties glow. Because there is nothing like a kid singing about bug booties glowing.

The dense fog of winter is settling in and has taken a hold of everything even my mind. But, how can one be expected to think when it is so damn hot in January. And for us in Louisiana so damn wet. The rain is relentless. Literally we are now under a national emergency for the entire state. When it rains for a week straight here, we are in feet and feet of water and it won’t go away. This is why I think there must be tons of people murdered and dumped in the bayou. With all this gator infested water everywhere, nobody will find you. Just don’t go driving around up to no good out in cajun country. You have been warned.

Sure, I could try and come up with something to jump start my mind, but ain’t nobody got time for that. Ok that was awful. Forgive me. Maybe I will just go get my pint of Ben and Jerry’s (that I really shouldn’t have bought since they donated money against the campaign in california to label genetically  modified food) And sit on the couch and watch a documentary about the life of Buddha and enjoy the mellow calm that comes with a clouded mind.

We all know there is always a calm before the storm.


Good Reads

A friend asked me where my blog roll was as to help her find some good blogs to start following. This reminded me I had not updated my blog roll in oh about nine months. And here on wordpress, there is a good potential for half your blog roll to stop posting in that time, so it was due for an update.

I posted last month for people to ask me to check out their blogs, I am still doing that, and so have not added any of those cool blogs to my blog roll yet, but will the next update.

I keep my blog roll on the page called good reads at the top of my homepage. I hope you enjoy reading these blogs because I sure as hell do.

Here are some amazing blogs. In no particular order 🙂

0. Not the hardest part (formerly known as the waiting) 

1. Becoming Cliche 

2. Publikworks

3. Mommy Man

4. The Solipsistic Me

5. A Buddhist in the Red Belt

6. Zendicitve

7. Ashley, etc

8. Snide Reply

9. Maximum Wage

10. Dirt N Kids

11. The Lutheran Church of Australia: In my opinion

12. Daddy Ranman

13. Raising my Rainbow

14. In Case I’m Gone

15. Sweet Mother

16. Ferociously Fallen

17. Sweating for it

18. A rich full life in spite of it

19. Canadica!

20. A Clown on Fire 

Favorite Posts From This Year #2

Now this post, was my very first freshly pressed post. Later I will post my even more popular second freshly pressed post. I hope you enjoy it as much as wordpress did.

Let’s Be Friends… Wait Nevermind

Why I will never be popular.

1. I am too sarcastic. Sure certain men enjoy a sarcastic woman. The same kind of man that gets turned on by a girl being mean as hell to them. You know who you are. But everyone else, they find it funny if they understand it. Don’t under any circumstances be sarcastic with someone who is stupid. They get super angry and bitter.

2. I am confrontational. If someone hurts my feelings, or says something that is simply hateful I just can’t not say anything. Yes I am that person that says what everyone is thinking but won’t say it. Especially in those awful work meetings. Yes I have made presenters cry. She had it coming.

3. I am too blunt. This goes hand in hand with number two. I simply do not understand why people are not simply honest all of the time. What is the point of lying, and making things up? I will never understand why someone would ever lie about anything ever.

4. I am an introvert. Now introverts are largely misunderstood group of people. It does not mean I do not enjoy the company of others, it simply means social occasions drain me emotionally and physically. I can only handle so much before I hit empty and need to recharge.

5. My awesomeness. I am so awesome it is threatening to many people. My awesomeness fills up a room. How do I know I am that awesome? Ask around. Everyone says so.

Why should I follow your blog?

It is the time of year when bloggers slow down. Less is being written and more is being celebrated in real life. I know it is hard to believe, but the internet is not what I consider real life.  It has also been a few months since I have added new blogs to read and many of the lovely blogs I follow no longer write anything. This is where you come in.

Tell me why I should be following your blog and I will check it out.

Give me a sentence or two about your awesomeness, your theme, or maybe just why you think we would hit it off.

I can’t wait to read them all!



Learning curve of Nanowrimo

I am sure you are expecting me to blog about the election, but I cannot. It hurts too much to think about it. I just want it to be over like morning sickness.

I have some insightful thoughts I have learned in my first week of nanowrimo.

1. It is weird and exciting when you are writing so much, you start to dream your novel. No kidding. I went to sleep and my dream began right were I left off writing. Gave me some fantastic ideas too.

2. It is super hard to write a book at night and do anything else productive. I wouldn’t bother trying. Eating cookies and writing, however, is extremely easy.

3. All the cool kids do nanowrimo. I am not go to a meet up of nanowrimo’s cool, but more like hipster writer wannabe cool. If only I could find my skinny jeans.

4. Characters you are writing will do things you did not expect. How is that even possible? Answer. Aliens.

5. I need complete quiet to write a novel. Somehow I can do a million things while I blog, but writing a fictional story, I need somewhere between silence and the kids are out of town quiet.

P.S. Win or lose I heart you Obama xoxo

Be the peace you wish to see

This next month I will be participating in NanoWriMo for the first time and my blogging will take a back seat for a few weeks. I will try and blog once a week. So, be on the look out for that awesomeness.


Peace: What does peace mean to you?

All quiet, amicable, bloodless, calm, collected, composed, constant, easeful, equable, free from strife, gentle, harmonious, irenic, level, mellow, neutral, neutralist, non belligerent, nonviolent, on friendly terms, on good terms, pacifistic, peaceable, placatory, placid, quiet, restful, smooth, sociable, steady, still, tranquil, undisturbed, unruffled, untroubled, without hostility

How often do these words enter your day?

How often are these your actions?

How much of your day would change if at least once you were one of these things?