Today I let anger win and that makes me sad.

Today was a dark day. I actually got into a heated confrontation with someone. Something that is becoming more of a rare occurrence for me.

It all started with me saying I felt unsafe when I drove through states like Texas. Which brought the you are being paranoid comment. And I lost it.

Am I being paranoid when, I have been pulled over and harassed by cops in Texas to the point of tears?

Am I being paranoid when, I have had doctors refuse to be my doctor?

Am I being paranoid when, I have had strangers come up to me and tell me I am going to hell?

Am I being paranoid when, I have people come up to me while I was pregnant and tell me my child would be be messed up because I was their parent?

Am I being paranoid when, I cannot send my child to half of the schools in the city I live in, simply because I am her mother?

Am I being paranoid when, I have been offered jobs and then they take it back?

Am I being paranoid when, I have had co workers who have never met me try to get me fired?

Am I being paranoid when, I turn on the news and people are calling for my death?

Am I being paranoid when, presidential candidates are saying children with father’s in prison are better off then in my home?

Am I being paranoid when, I am getting refused service in a restaurant and asked to leave?

Am I being paranoid when, many state’s GOP platform includes that my family is tearing at the fabric of society?

yes, a lot of people love the gays. But, do not for one second think that being a gay family in the south all rainbows.

Here is a match to put out that fire you started

It seems

these days

that

anger 

is all the rage

quick

come here

let me whisper something

mean

and

hurtful

about that

person

over there

I am

so much better

than them

blah blah

blah hate

blah blah

blah anger….

blah blah

blah

 

Slow down

give them

the benefit of a doubt

maybe

just

maybe

you do not know

the whole story

 

Can you fight fire

with fire?

 

Can you stop

a flood with more water?

 

Can you stand up

and demand

kindness?

 

How much

longer

will we all

sit by

and let the

angry

win?

Tainted Youth

This poem is not in fact inspired by the violence post yesterday, but by a conversation I had with a few students in my class. Who  informed me bullying was not a big deal because if someone bullies you, then you just hit them until they stop. They continued to say beating someone up is always the best answer to your problems.

 

My heart is

broken

for you

how do you

manage to stay

so angry 

everyday?

Your soul

must

be

so

heavy

How do you

manage to

breathe

everyday?

When all

I see is

fire

coming out of

your mouth

Keep looking

behind

you

maybe one day

you will catch them

 

“those people”

out to get

you

 

But

be

warned my friend

if you

only

answer

with

violence

 

Violence

is

all

you

will

find

How to find peace in 325 easy steps

In amazing mind blowing news I have been freshly pressed !! They pressed a post I wrote a week ago Let’s be friends… wait never mind. I am completely humbled that my silly little sarcastic thoughts could be freshly pressed.

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Peace.

Every where you turn people are looking for it. Is it under this rock. Maybe it is in this book. Nope. Wait it is in a new diet program. Wrong again. Let’s just blame everyone else for keeping us from our peace.

Oh dear.

The problem with searching for peace is that it cannot be found. Peace is already here. It is within you just waiting patiently. Why can’t you feel it? Well because you are holding onto everything else so tightly you have buried it. You must let go. Let go of everything. That anger you feel after any politician opens their mouth. Let it go. That ex that did you wrong ten times to sunday. Let it go. The shiny new toys you can’t afford. Let it go.

Inhale Recognize what you cannot control

Exhale Release it out into the world.

You will find all that is left is peace.

Damn it – I tried all of that and I am still wound up so tight I fear I may explode into one of those tragic facebook posts where I end up looking like a giant tool.

Ok Ok maybe you just need to get laid then.

 

 

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Let’s be honest

Let’s be honest

Do you even know how

to tell the truth?

When you look in the mirror

What do you see?

Are you proud?

If I were you

I wouldn’t be

Or have you gone too far

that you cannot see

who you are

anymore?

Deep down

I know you are in there

That you don’t even believe the

lies

you tell yourself

What happened?

When did you give yourself over to

anger and hate?

Why are you taking us all down with

you?

 

Please

Let

Love 

In